06/11/26, thurs
horrible date with My Ex Who I Always Dream About. for some reason we're in my hometown, aimlessly wandering - desperate for something to do, desperate to actually enjoy each other's company. i'm fussy & difficult, embarassing him at every turn.
after a miserable day, we make it back to my place & he immediately gets into his car. i try to tell him that this will definitely be the last time we ever see each other, but he's so annoyed he drives away before i can finish speaking. however, he's forgotten his wallet. in a twisted way, i'm pleased; he'll have to turn around & come back for it. the cycle of our toxic relationship continues.
06/12/26, fri
i'm on a long bus ride with a friend. we discuss the idea of travelling abroad some day, perhaps to Japan.
the bus makes a stop at my childhood home, which has a new family living there. through the windows of the house, i can see that garbage is stacked high to the ceiling - the new owners are pack rats.
06/13/26, sat
after a massively high blood sugar that won't go down, i end up falling asleep at 5pm.
my partner & i find ourselves in a strange house. i think we've been given some kind of drug, & reality begins to distort around us. horrific visions crawl over the world: swarms of insects, naked people, gutted animals, deformed bodies, unspeakable violence. the images flow endlessly from one into the next, writhing & mutating like some demented AI-generated hallucination.
we try to escape, but we can no longer trust our own senses. everywhere we look the visions cloud reality & obscure our path. we stumble through the house unable to tell which direction we're going, or what's real & what isn't. i suddenly lurch awake, drenched in sweat.
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