i didn’t realize that today is Friday the 13th. well, nothing too scary happened other than work but luckily my shift was only 4 hours.
the overconsumption & price-gouging in the Douglas community is stressing me out. i’ve been avoiding instagram as a result.
i need to stop worrying that all my coworkers hate me when i go on my 30 minute break.
halfway through my shift right now, then more work tomorrow before the long weekend! i’m excited, especially because Saturday is Valentine’s Day. even when i was single i loved Valentine’s Day; i’m a sucker for anything heart-shaped & the whole aesthetic of it is super cute to me. Steve & i don’t have anything crazy planned - just lunch at our favourite spot like usual. then i have plans on Sunday with my best friend K, who i haven’t seen since before Christmas, & then on Monday i plan on doing absolutely nothing.
i started taking my Metformin regularly as prescribed & it’s actually helping to stifle my appetite which is a relief. i’ve been binge-free for two days now.
Lenarshe (the damaged Douglas Smoke wolf i’ve been expecting) arrived yesterday! she is beautiful & i’m SO happy. i can’t wait to take her on adventures.
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when i see people in public who used to know me from high school i want to run & hide.
today was really good. Steve & i had lunch at our favourite spot (which we’d been avoiding these past few weeks for financial reasons), after that we had some cake at a newly-opened cafe & then did a little shopping. he got me two Douglas dogs from the toy store - Alps the bernese mountain dog & Kingsley the cavalier king charles spaniel! i couldn’t stop smiling.
there was a woman at the bus terminal who sneezed several times without covering her mouth which really irritated me. i don’t understand people who brazenly open-mouth cough like that; it grosses me out & badly triggers my OCD.
lately i’m having some trouble with my right hand: extreme stiffness & pain in my knuckles & the bottom joints of my fingers. last night i woke suddenly around 12am yelling in pain; Steve woke up & rushed to get me some Advil, which helped enough to get me back to sleep. it started months ago as a dull ache but over the past few days the pain seems to only be getting worse. i’m worried that it’s arthritis or something. i have a referral from my doctor for an x-ray at the clinic but god knows when i’ll find the time to do that.
i actually mustered the courage to call in today & i'm glad i did. i walked to the hospital, had a coffee, & got my bloodwork done. i also splurged on a Chief german shepherd by Douglas, which is a plush i've had my eye on for a while. i have a few more plushies coming in the mail, too; i'm excited.
i finished Billy Budd & i ended up really loving it even though i had to use a study guide a couple times. i'm feeling more confident about my eventual reading of Moby Dick as a result since Billy is generally considered to be the more difficult text. the randomizer selected Piranesi by Susanna Clarke as my current read, though, which is also fine; it's about time i read something kindof relevant.
